Try not to cry while watching a girl who has decided to commit suicide in SYML's heavy video for "Where's My Love".
Brian Fennell is a student of simplicity. As SYML (pronounced simmel), which translates to simple in Welsh, Fennell writes emotive ambient pop songs that capture the ethos of his musical persona. With delicate piano, swells of strings and Fennells sterling vocals, the songs that comprise his debut EPs Hurt For Me andIn My Body, out January 2018, embody the relinquishing of all emotions, a cathartic release laid bare. The name meaning simple was the cornerstone of what I wanted in these songs, Fennell says. Keep it simple because you cant hide behind things aswell when it is stripped back and when it is naked and raw.
The projects origins stem from a pair of songs Fennell had written years prior, borne out of the resulting introspection from navigating a healthy and supportive relationship with his now-wife. Over a heaving string orchestration and harrowing piano on Wheres My Love, Fennell looks outward at a romantic partner and wishing for their emotional wellness for the sake of the relationship; on The War, a stark track with thundering percussion, a battle is waged between the boy and adult man living inside himself. Fennell shared these tracks with a friend who helped land Wheres My Love in an episode the MTV drama Teen Wolf in 2016, thus thrusting Fennell into the spotlight. So he wrote more songs, self-recording and producing in his home just outside of Seattle.
A child of a closed adoption, Fennell discovered his Welsh roots as an adult and utilizes his heritage in his music in the projects name and as a filter through which he views the world, though its ultimately the juxtaposition between his own happiness and the content of his music that is most resounding.I describe my music as generally being pretty sad or dark but the reality of where that comes from is a general mystery that exists behind my history as a person, Fennell says.On the Hurt For Me and In My Body EPs, Fennell examines the will of a person that exists after hurt and loss, the humanity in the thoughts and feelings we all possess when we close our eyes each night.
He reckons with internal struggles in Body,: Ive become the only thing I hate, he sings; a plea for a lovers own self-acceptance on Wildfire: Youre not a curse, youre not too much / you are needed here, you are enough / nothings going to hold you down for long.
Theres not a ton that we can all agree on other than like what it feels like at the end of the day being human and going through intense things such as hurt and loss, Fennell says. You can compare it to the honeymoon phase of something positive, we also have honeymoon phases in hurt and loss. At the end of each of those phases I think that we're unified in 'I have to decide how Im going to choose to still love after this. Do I still love myself?
Fennells heartfelt approach to music comes from an experience he had in college with a percussion professor. A classically trained pianist who graduated with a degree in music education, Fennell often rested on his laurels early in his career. The instructor inspired him to strive for more, to put more of himself into his practice.I had to bleed and really be upset with myself to understand fully how to learn something like music, he recalls. It all collided at the same time and I really latched onto writing songs at that point. You need to let go of being perfect or being the best. As soon as you accept failing at something and can give yourself up in a personal way to the music, then you can finally be light enough to reach your potential.
Ultimately, it is a kind and truthful depiction of emotion, grounded by his gut-wrenching vocal delivery that keeps SYML from sounding maudlin, soppy. Like the name implies, its the simplistic approach --things are hard, lets talk about it --that makes SYML relatable, the topics he sings about tangible.
One of the pitfalls of writing more emotional music, as a listener and lover of that music, would be you pulling the wool over somebodys eyes just to make them feel something, Fennell says. Im trying to be conscious of not doing that. Its not flippant music where Im throwing out this emotion to the world, Im trying to approach it with more care and conscience.